Just a girl with a small frame,

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I'm still trying to settle although I don't have a place to settle into yet.
Mike and I found a cute little house in a great area with washer/dryer/alarm included
but we have no income.. we have no jobs.
I've been trying desperately to get a job but no luck thus far hopefully things will change.
My bike is finished finally.
It makes a mysterious noise and my drive train is oddly loud for a new bike.
Bike polo kicked my ass on Sunday; many bruises to show for it.
I don't really like the people that ... scratch that, I don't really like people.
I'm waiting anxiously for my saddle shoes and my hulk t-shirt to arrive.
I want to trade in my car for the little money that it's worth to get a classic car,
even if it's not fully restored. I found a couple nice ones on craigslist for about 4k.
NORTH CAROLINA IS FUCKING HOT, good thing I always wear long sleeves,
otherwise I'd be burnt to a crisp right now.
I'm not really stoked on these mutant mosquitos either.
Question for you guys..
When did The Penguin get all "yuppified"?
I went to grab a soy-dog the other day and there was a line out the door, all kids in polos and
bottle blonde moms with their mercedes and SUVs in the parking lot..
That place used to be cool and the jukebox there is amazing, but it goes unappreciated.
I ended up calling The Penguin from the parking lot to make a pick up order and decided
to walk across the street to Common Market for a cola and there was a line out the back
door there.
Where did all these people come from??
I haven't seen that many familiar faces around but then again I don't go out much.
Speaking of which.. what's happening in charlotte? Does anyone party anymore?
I've been here for two weeks and still haven't gotten good and drunk yet.
I got new glasses and I need to go have them re-adjusted they don't stay on my nose.
I guess that's about it.

I never write in this thing anymore..
I'm really bad at communicating with people, and keeping in touch with people..
and right now I'm not one for words so heres some photos..
( as of late )

they can sit on the interwebs and post a trillion bulletins a day
but can't answer a text or make a phone call..
i guess myspacin' is a full time job.... . .

I have:
1 Medium Green tank


1 Medium White tank


1 Medium, 1 Large White tee


1 Small, 1 Medium, 1 Large Lavender tee


Tanks are $23
Tees are $21

I won't charge you shipping either!
Wouldn't you rather buy my shirts directly from me than ordering online via Volcom website?

I put money down on this frameset today! I'm really excited about building it up myself.






I think I'll probably build it similar to that one but might change a couple things.
It's a 50cm true track geometry aluminum frame. I was looking at the 48cm on 650c
wheels but it's a bit too small for me, it looked like a toy bike. I don't get wholesale
parts from my bike shop yet but I might quit there before then.. I hate it..

im tired more than usual lately


i have 3 or more headaches a day everyday
i dont like how i am about somethings
i dont like being stubborn or paranoid
i want to go somewhere
i hate that i start fights over stupid things
i know its annoying

in other news..
richmond was fun
belaire face planted into the concrete
i have 15+ bruises on both legs
a lady said i pissed on the church lawn
(i didnt)
i got poison ivy for the first time
we rode probably 50+ miles
and pictures can be found hereish
Flickr
Just click the Slaughterama Album

I made really great vegan cheesy creamy broccoli soup yesterday
I also made this fresh veggie samich
This morning Mike and I got up early and rode bikes to park slope for breakfast
We tried to go to Dixons bike shop but it was closed for 20 mins?
We then rode to Prospect park and did a lap around the park.
We passed the Zoo and botanical gardens, I think that trip is something were going to make a habit of
On the ride back I got hurt now I have a nasty bruise but its okay
I got tapped by a car too but no big
I finally got a new hoodie
Richmond is next weekend, were excited!
I get to see Tooley in a week!!!
This Saturday Mike and I are babysitting some kids for 150 dollars each
My muscles ache but I feel good about it.
Tonight were playing N64 all night
I went to Canarsie tonight to go get my package that I missed from UPS..
Canarsie is the end of the L train aka bum fuck scary warehouse land
I waited in line for an hour.. it took me an hour to get there and another hour home
I missed my trains by a second both times.
My job is alright but my boss is awful...
I don't have any friends at my work except Mike on Sundays
He's a mechanic on sundays.
I think were doing better than we ever have before


Baby I love youuu c'mon babayyy ... i've really been on a ramones kick lately

most boring st pattys day ever......

I got a job at a bike shop today.

spoon full of discouragement makes the depression go down...

So I was laid off a week shy of a month ago.. I've applied at over 100 places and haven't gotten any response yet.. I'm a bit discouraged about the whole thing. I have a photoshoot at the end of the month and I'll get 700 dollars but that doesn't help me out right now. Mike wants to go to Richmond at the end of the month to go to Slaughterama but we still have to finish my bike. Our apartment is finally finished all we need to do now is decorate and get some shelves. Here's a link to my flickr so you guys can get an idea of how much fucking snow we had the other day..

Flickr

It's going to be warmer tomorrow! I got an application for barnes n noble so maybe that one will work out..

but at least my hair is lookin goood and nappy ha

Today I went out to go find dress pants for my sandwich interview.. as I was walking to the Q from Fulton St, my shoe broke in half.. it was pouring rain and my socks were soaked.. So I had to go to payless to buy the same little black shoes I always wear. I went to Forever 21 later to try to find dress pants and jesus fucking christ was that store a nightmare. It was a fucking mess. The people that work there didn't seem to give a fuck much like most NY retail employees with the exception of a few. I found some pants basic black pants.. I walked to meet Steve, who I used to work with at Jubilee where we saw this guy..



I blurted out.. "YR THAT DUDE"
and he said "hi followed by shhh"
Probably because he didn't want people to bother him. That made my trip a little better.
Now I'm at home doing nothing again.

Mike and I both agree that Valentine's day is stupid..
We don't think you should show your appreciation to someone that you love
by buying them things one day a year. We think you shouldn't need material
things to show someone you love them or appreciate them. So Valentine's day
was just any other day for us. We had pizza for dinner then went to Mitch's
party where we lost track of time and ended up staying until 4:30am. We
waited on the train but decided to walk home. It was a long walk, but we shared
some good conversations. We got back to our apartment at 5 something, ate
more pizza, had the best sex and went to sleep. I had to be up at 10 for work
or so I thought I was going to work..

I get up mildly hungover and dreading an open to close shift.. I get to work
20 minutes early.. because last Sunday I got written up and sent home for being
2 minutes late. So anyway, I go to the register to check the time and I notice
an envelope with my name on it next to some termination papers. I read them,
it says something about being laid off so I go downstairs to confront my boss,
he couldn't look me in the eye when I asked what all this was about. He said
it was the economy but I asked him "no really what is it im sure theres another
reason" He still stuck to his story although I still don't believe him. So I
grabbed my shit and walked out. I had my final paycheck and some stupid papers.
I got back on the train stifling tears and burying my face in my book. I wish
I would've said all the things I've wanted to say for a while but I didn't. A
feeling of nausea crept over me as I walked to the G. I was so out of it that
I forgot to swipe my card and ran right into the turnstile. Once I got home I
climbed back into bed with Mike where we kinda spent the rest of the day. We
woke up at 2 and showered then just laid around. We ended up taking another nap
until 6 then watched two movies after dinner. We laughed so hard until we cried.
I'm a little discouraged about the job thing right now. I've applied online at
a number of places but I find myself not wanting to go into the city to give
people my resume, it could be because it's 20 degrees again. I tell myself everyday
that I'm going to go out and job hunt but I end up here doing it online.

-Im going to stay home and do artwork today instead of going
to give people my resume that they will probably throw away.
-I applied for a few internships online today, a step in the right direction.
-Vegan apple cinnamon pancakes are delish.
-Everytime I type the word cinnamon I have to spell check it.
-2 out of the 3 meals I've eaten in the past week have been mainly lettuce.
-Two huge guys robbed my store a couple weeks ago, I was blamed for not stopping them.
-A lady got mugged the other day on the subway, I felt bad because I couldn't help.
-I walk more than I take the train, not because I have to but I want to.
-I really love our new apartment.
-By "our" I mean Mike Ryan and myself.
-Mike and I work very well together and I'm very happy in this relationship.
-My roommate can out drink me which is something I'm not used to.
-I spent 40 dollars on paper to make my art portfolio and my printer decided to ruin about..
15 pages of it so far.
-Yesterday I spent 4 hours doing tedious work on illustrator, the end result was:
wanting to poke my eyes out.
-When I'm home all day I want to play miss fix it and start priming things.
-The awful orange and red walls in the living and kitchen area must go.
-The other day I went around the whole apt changing every light switch plate and plug in plate.
-There's a mini moma exhibit at Atlantic Pacific st terminal but they're just
vinyl prints of artworks that are in the museum.
-Mike and I stole one of the prints.
-I miss the occasional times that Megan wanted to drink and Gini and I would get excited.
-I also miss Tooley and Drew who I can barely catch on the phone anymore.
-Fear is playing here in May and This Bike is A Pipe Bomb and Kimya Dawson are playing in March.
-Mike and I might take the train to Baltimore to see Bouncing Souls next month.
-I put going to Niagara Falls on our to do list.
-I also would like to go to Canada.
-There's vegan chickn sandwhiches at KFC in Canada.
-Mike isn't vegan but doesn't like to eat meat in front of me because he thinks its disrespectful.
-I appreciate him.
-Tomorrow I get to see Lindsey Mitch and Dustin all dressed in southern attire.
-Southern accents are so much more apparent when i hear them now.
-Danny and his lady came to visit a few weeks ago, It was fun.
-I'm glad he's dating a girl that doesn't suck.
-We all got stupid wasted and had greasy dinner food the next day.
-I pretty much live off of lettuce pancakes hashbrowns and pbr.
-My neighbor plays the clarinet I hear it but it doesn't annoy me.

my insides feel inside out

All kinds of things are happening lately. We found a new apartment! Finally, I'm very excited. I really want to get a half sleeve, I already drew it out its just a matter of finding the right person to put it on me, and the money. We move on Sunday and that day is going to be a headache and a half. I work on Sunday and someone is moving into my old room in my old apartment, we can't move into our new apartment until the old tenants move out. So it's like playing house swap. I've got pretty much everything packed, I feel like I have way too much shit. I tried getting rid of some stuff today but you can't really tell the difference.

( a few random things: )

I hate girls.
Especially ones that just don't take a fucking hint
or respect other peoples relationships...

That's all I'm going to say on the matter.

I bit a hole in my lip by accident..
I've been under the weather the past couple of days, it's 17 degrees out right now. I miss hot sun and sweet tea. I'm moving into a new apt next month, I haven't found one specifically yet but still looking. The girls at work don't seem to like me much but then again most girls don't seem to like me much, I don't mind. I want to see the world! I need to find a USB so I can upload some artworks and such.. Dear NC friends.. I miss you..

Lately things are wonderful. About a week ago, Mike and I got dressed up and went to see The Day The Earth Stood Still at the Regal in Union Square then we had dinner at Grand Central Terminal. I had never seen Grand Central and really wanted to. It was awesome. If only we could go see the Old City Hall subway station, it's the oldest one in NYC but it isn't open to the public due to "security reasons and terror risk". If you can find pictures of it you'll see just how beautiful it is. For New Years we went to Mitch's new house for a little get together. We all left there to go to some party but Mike and I went to a random bar instead. Some how we got into a conversation with a stranger and Mike told him we were going to different bars and drinking a beer at each one and the guy asked how many we had been to and Mike told him 17, ha the guy said "you've each had 17 beers?! you need water! I need water!!" He then bought a drink haha. I ended up getting really sick for some reason. That never happens, it was weird. I had to work the next day which was awful but I did get paid double. My hair is a mess and I want to move!!!!! One more month in this apt, just one..

Union SQ NYE 2009..

I didn't go back to NC for the holidays, Mike didn't either. So last night, (Christmas Eve) we made hash browns and bocca nuggets then snuggled up and watched A Christmas Story. What a classic movie. We're on a budget right now and money is really tight but he got me a Clash DVD which was really cute. I love the Clash ha. He said he forgot to wrap it so he wrapped it in my penguins on ice skates fleece blanket. I'm taking him to his surprise this evening after we go see his family in Queens. Then I believe we are going to Ashley's Christmas party. I think this is the first Christmas that I haven't seen Lindsey since I was 8 or something. Weird. Anyway, happy holidays.

I uploaded some things onto Flickr so feel free to browse.
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